's been a few months. Just read my last post, the bit that says "looking to get an A/A* in art" made me giggle 'cause I GOT an AA* (it's two GCSEs).
So yeah just checking in. I'll post art maybe at some point, but most my friends on here've seen it all anyway. :P I could just post a link to my Deviantart anyways.
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I still check Livejournal like, a lot, 's just that I don't post here much any more... :/
well, school finished, leaver's night and gay pride were fun. And since then, it's been drawing, reading, Simsing, MSNing, Skyping and going out occasionally. It's not very eventful, but it's nice, calm. 'Specially seeing as I was so annoyed earlier this year about like, EVERYTHING. Fuck. But yeah, :).
well, school finished, leaver's night and gay pride were fun. And since then, it's been drawing, reading, Simsing, MSNing, Skyping and going out occasionally. It's not very eventful, but it's nice, calm. 'Specially seeing as I was so annoyed earlier this year about like, EVERYTHING. Fuck. But yeah, :).
Next Saturday I'll be applying for a job, and the Saturday after that, I'm going to meet people. ^___^
And I'm going to Greece in about a month, where the booze is all-inclusive (ie. FREE) and the beach is right next to us. So I'mma be drinking vodka on a lilo all day, funtimes, I guess. I hope Facebook works on my phone there. :/
Also HURRR EXAMS FINISHED. That was awesome. I like not revising all the fucking time. :33
Oh oh and the art show was the other day, apparently I'm looking towards an A/A* in art :D probably an A, seeing as I got a B on my exam. But still, this is awesome. My teacher said one of my canvases attracted a lot of positive feedback. Wait, lemme get pictures...
This is the one people were asking about. I hate it, it took about six months, but yeah. My teacher said it could fetch like, a thousand pounds :|
And the second one, I don't think people asked about it, but I prefer it, because it's... cleaner. I just prefer it, 'cause I prefer paint and pastels to fucking SEWING FOR LIKE 3 HOURS A DAY FOR WELL OVER
A FUCKING MONTH.
Anyway, yeah, I've been pretty happy lately. And I've gotten a tablet, which I've been drawing on a LOT. :33
And I'm going to Greece in about a month, where the booze is all-inclusive (ie. FREE) and the beach is right next to us. So I'mma be drinking vodka on a lilo all day, funtimes, I guess. I hope Facebook works on my phone there. :/
Also HURRR EXAMS FINISHED. That was awesome. I like not revising all the fucking time. :33
Oh oh and the art show was the other day, apparently I'm looking towards an A/A* in art :D probably an A, seeing as I got a B on my exam. But still, this is awesome. My teacher said one of my canvases attracted a lot of positive feedback. Wait, lemme get pictures...
This is the one people were asking about. I hate it, it took about six months, but yeah. My teacher said it could fetch like, a thousand pounds :|
And the second one, I don't think people asked about it, but I prefer it, because it's... cleaner. I just prefer it, 'cause I prefer paint and pastels to fucking SEWING FOR LIKE 3 HOURS A DAY FOR WELL OVER
A FUCKING MONTH.
Anyway, yeah, I've been pretty happy lately. And I've gotten a tablet, which I've been drawing on a LOT. :33
Answer every question truthfully and have fun!
1. "One-of-a-kind"s
a. Name five bands or artists you listen to that start with "The."
--The Go! Team, The Flaming Lips, The Beatles, The Dresden Dolls, The Smashing Pumpkins.
b. What was the last one you listened to?
--The Go! Team.
c. How many of these bands had their start before 1990, if you know?
--Uhm, 3, I think.
2. "Strange names"
a. Name five bands or artists you listen to that have names that do not refer to its members as a certain item or thing, personal names included.
--Arcade Fire, Black Moth Super Rainbow, Crystal Castles, 20 Minute Loop, Radiohead.
b. Last one you heard?
--20 Minute Loop, but now I wanna listen to CC and Radiohead *changes*
c. Favorite song by this band or artist?
--20 Minute Loop? Oof... ESMA, or We Wait For The Crown. Only 'cause they're the most prominent in my mind atm. :S
3. "Number play"
a. Name three bands you listen to that currently consist of four members, or did at the time of their breakup, if applicable.
--Uhm. The Beatles, Health (I think), Neutral Milk Hotel, and... hahaha I really ought to read up on people I listen to. The Violent Femmes.
b. Name three with five members. Same rules.
-- Radiohead, Say Anything, 20 Minute Loop.
c. Three members?
--Animal Collective, apparently, thought there was four? Hellogoodbye, and uhm, don't listen to them any more, but Busted.
4. "Countries"
a. How many of the above bands, in any above category, are from a country other than the U.S.?
--3.
b. Were any of the above bands part of the famous "British Invasion"? If so, which ones?
--The Beatles.
5. "Languages"
a. Name three bands you listen to that have a different language in any of their songs.
--Sigur Rós, Arcade Fire, Lion King Soundtrack (U__U)
b. Name three that have songs COMPLETELY in a different language.
--Sigur Rós, Lion King Soundtrack, and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya Soundtrack.
6. "How?"
a. Name two bands, and explain how you came to like them.
--Hmm. Hellogoodbye, I watched a Gravitation AMV with Here In Your Arms in it... :P and Radiohead, I went through my dad's CDs, remembered liking Paranoid Android when I picked up OK Computer, and I've been hooked since. :D
7. "Albums"
a. Name ten albums you love, and by whom.
-- Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles
20 Minute Loop - Famous People Marry Famous People
Lemon Demon - Hip To The Javabean
Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea (everyone says this one, but it's so goood)
Animal Collective - Sung Tongs
Radiohead - Kid A
My Bloody Valentine - Loveless
The Beatles - Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club
The Knife - Deep Cuts
The Go! Team - Thunder, Lightning, Strike
Now let your friends do this fun quiz!
1. "One-of-a-kind"s
a. Name five bands or artists you listen to that start with "The."
--The Go! Team, The Flaming Lips, The Beatles, The Dresden Dolls, The Smashing Pumpkins.
b. What was the last one you listened to?
--The Go! Team.
c. How many of these bands had their start before 1990, if you know?
--Uhm, 3, I think.
2. "Strange names"
a. Name five bands or artists you listen to that have names that do not refer to its members as a certain item or thing, personal names included.
--Arcade Fire, Black Moth Super Rainbow, Crystal Castles, 20 Minute Loop, Radiohead.
b. Last one you heard?
--20 Minute Loop, but now I wanna listen to CC and Radiohead *changes*
c. Favorite song by this band or artist?
--20 Minute Loop? Oof... ESMA, or We Wait For The Crown. Only 'cause they're the most prominent in my mind atm. :S
3. "Number play"
a. Name three bands you listen to that currently consist of four members, or did at the time of their breakup, if applicable.
--Uhm. The Beatles, Health (I think), Neutral Milk Hotel, and... hahaha I really ought to read up on people I listen to. The Violent Femmes.
b. Name three with five members. Same rules.
-- Radiohead, Say Anything, 20 Minute Loop.
c. Three members?
--Animal Collective, apparently, thought there was four? Hellogoodbye, and uhm, don't listen to them any more, but Busted.
4. "Countries"
a. How many of the above bands, in any above category, are from a country other than the U.S.?
--3.
b. Were any of the above bands part of the famous "British Invasion"? If so, which ones?
--The Beatles.
5. "Languages"
a. Name three bands you listen to that have a different language in any of their songs.
--Sigur Rós, Arcade Fire, Lion King Soundtrack (U__U)
b. Name three that have songs COMPLETELY in a different language.
--Sigur Rós, Lion King Soundtrack, and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya Soundtrack.
6. "How?"
a. Name two bands, and explain how you came to like them.
--Hmm. Hellogoodbye, I watched a Gravitation AMV with Here In Your Arms in it... :P and Radiohead, I went through my dad's CDs, remembered liking Paranoid Android when I picked up OK Computer, and I've been hooked since. :D
7. "Albums"
a. Name ten albums you love, and by whom.
-- Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles
20 Minute Loop - Famous People Marry Famous People
Lemon Demon - Hip To The Javabean
Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea (everyone says this one, but it's so goood)
Animal Collective - Sung Tongs
Radiohead - Kid A
My Bloody Valentine - Loveless
The Beatles - Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club
The Knife - Deep Cuts
The Go! Team - Thunder, Lightning, Strike
Now let your friends do this fun quiz!
Haven't posted on here in ages. Been revising, for exams'n such, 'spose. Haha I've started using loads of contractions in my writing, hope that doesn't hurt my mark for my english exam.
But anyway, yeah, I haven't posted on here other than copypasting coursework in like... a month? It's 'cause I have very little to complain about! Yes. ^__^
Being happy's nice.
So, I'm in the middle of my exams at the minute, I've had chemistry revision books open in front of me for nearly a week now... I should've revised more before. :/
But anyway, yeah, I haven't posted on here other than copypasting coursework in like... a month? It's 'cause I have very little to complain about! Yes. ^__^
Being happy's nice.
So, I'm in the middle of my exams at the minute, I've had chemistry revision books open in front of me for nearly a week now... I should've revised more before. :/
So, 've got four exams left, and then I'm done. 'cept one of them is english, and english exams always make my thumb go all numb 'cause of the way I hold my pen... ahh well. Physics is the most worrying, done no work in it all year. D:
But anyway. Uhm. I've got nothing to talk about now that I haven't got mass complaints of having a shit life. Not that I'm complaining about that. xD
So, uh, might post some art on here at some point. :)
xx
English Language coursework
Media anaylsation
Ben Bernanke by Ryan Murphy
The piece of media I will be reviewing and analysing is a short film by a freelance director. The film is a parody about the real Ben Bernanke and depicted as a monologue. Halfway through, it is revealed that the persona, famed American Economist Ben Bernanke, is speaking to another person, who does not respond for the entirety of the film, however, exerts body language which reveals their feelings, to a degree; the man, namely, Spencer, repeatedly looks away from Bernanke, clearly wishing to avoid eye contact with him.
The film opens with the image of the persona warping, accompanied by a buzzing sound, this lasting for less than a second. This hints at the unstable psyche of the persona, this idea then supported by the image being revealed as Ben Bernanke smiling inauspiciously at the camera, sitting in an armchair, the camera filming from below, perhaps to add to the atmosphere of instability. The opening line introduces the monologue quite successfully; simply, "hello there, Spencer." The word "Spencer" is spat out with subtle anger, which may indicate that the persona has hostile feelings for him. This is later contradicted by proclamations of love, and sexual advances in verbal form. As he begins speaking, the non-diegetic sound, Sergei Prokofiev's "Montagues And Capulets," fades in, which may set an uneasy mood for the video. Following this, Bernanke states "I see you, you boy. Boy. I see you, Spencer, with my eyes." This may be interpreted as a degenerating psyche, something a person would say if they were not of sound mind. This may also indicate that Bernanke is trying to gain the romantic attention of Spencer, using repetition on the words "you," and "boy." At this point, there is a close-up shot of Bernanke's face, as his eyes and smile widen. This shot lasts for about a second, and works to unsettle the viewer. He then goes on to describe Spencer as "the architect of my dreams," claiming that Spencer hands in proposals and that he himself dreams them, going on to thank Spencer, with heavy sarcasm, as the camera zooms into Bernanke's face. This is almost an on-screen oxymoron; how does Bernanke feel towards Spencer? Who is Spencer? What is it that causes these unnatural body language, speech, and mood patterns? These burning questions remain a mystery for the length of the video, and, eventually leave the viewer feeling confused and unsettled by the film as a whole.
This ongoing stream of non sequiturs is continued with "I'm a magician, Spencer, a furious magician." This comment, while it may be nonsensical to the point of hilarity, uses the literary device to further unsettle the viewer, not usual for the non sequitur. As he goes into the second part of this claim, the camera angle changes to show a slight side-view (however showing all of the front) of his face, which appears very calm and formal, matching his clothing. He then goes on to speak the Aramic words for "let the thing be gone," accompanying it with "- to you, Spencer," repeating this twice, worded slightly differently, revealing a widely bipolar trait in Bernanke's personality, or at least, in his feelings towards Spencer. As he says these words, his eyes widen, and he pronounces them with heavy emphasis and mouth movement, as though he is supressing an excitement, of unknown category.
The camera cuts back to a frontal angle, facing Bernanke, as he continues with the erratic dialogue; "you think you're something special, Spencer, you think you're something brand new," putting emphasis on "special," "Spencer," and "brand new." This shows a pattern; it seems that Bernanke is, in fact, envious of Spencer at this point. With the information provided thus far, it could be interpreted as Bernanke manifesting feelings for Spencer, while envying him for his status, it seems. In addition, as the words "brand new" are spoken, the camera cuts out and back on again, to film only the lower half of his face as he visually pronounces the words, almost with spite (the dialogue thus far has seen Bernanke pronounce words visually with heavy emphasis - for example, as he speaks, he will open his mouth quite wide, and amplify words in both ways). Changing camera angles again, this time, even further to the other side of Bernanke, he then says "you're old oats, Spencer; you're old, dry stale oats," again, using repetition to place primary emphasis on the statement.
At this point, the music notably ceases, and a second character is revealed - clearly, this is Spencer, the person Bernanke is talking to. Spencer, wearing glasses, is looking at the camera, which seems to now be filming from Bernanke's point of view. He then looks away, (as Bernanke repeats "...Spencer,") to the lower right of the screen, away from Bernanke; this shows that Bernanke is uncomfortable with maintaining eye-contact with him. In light of this, he looks back at him as Bernanke repeats "I'm a magician, Spencer, a furious magician." He then, cautiously, looks away again, turning his head away, slightly, too.
The camera cuts to a view of both personas, revealing that they are both sitting in armchairs, in a confortably furnished living-room. Their seats are quite close together, and they are both dressed in suits. This gives the impression of a formal meeting, visually; however, verbal evidence thus far suggests the opposite.
"You're a tall glass of water, aren't you, Spencer?" This rhetorical question is, naturally, left unanswered by Spencer, who simply sits looking at Bernanke, frozen, with a worried look on his face. As this sentence begins, the non-diegetic sound (the same song as before) fades slowly back in, as in its absence, an awkward silence took its place. As a few screeching high notes play, Bernanke states "...boy, precious boy." This, again, hints at Bernanke having romantic feelings for Spencer, however, the use of "precious" alone could be interpreted as platonic love.
At this point in the video, it is not needed, however, Bernanke goes on to introduce himself; "I'm Ben Bernanke, Spencer, and I want your teeth for the Federal Reserve!"
This sentence, worrying as it is, reveals exactly who he is and what his motives are - or, at least, partially. He emphasises the very last syllable with an upper-inflection, as he pauses slightly to take a breath, and continues;
"I'm cutting interest rates in half, Spencer, and I need your teeth."
He ends this sentence with a lower inflection, as the camera switches to a portrait-view of Spencer, as he worriedly looks at Bernanke, eyebrows raised. Attempting to claim ownership of Spencer's teeth is a worrying thought; the sheer thought of this man, with the American economy in his hands, is now quite worrying to the viewer. He looks down, away from the other man, as Bernanke begins talking again, in a low voice, "I'll admit, Spencer, you're handsome, but what have you done with it?"
This sentence is almost eerily stable-sounding in comparison with the rest of the monologue thus far - he pronounces the last six words particularly thoroughly, asking this question quite seriously, with a stern expression. The next line suggests a touch of paranoia in Bernanke's dialogue - "do you think you can mock me, Spencer? Do you?"
This use of rhetorical question in the monologue is a stylistic break - the constant stream of nonsequiential statements, while in timing, has not been broken, it has created a literary break. This continues with the next line, "do you think you can m-do you think you can capture my essence and throw it back at me, with humor and rhetorical devices!?"
The break in his speech, which was, it seems, a repetition of "do you think you can mock me?" is caused by static on the screen, possibly put in to finalise the "break" in the film, as it is almost halfway through at this point. Bernanke seems to be revealing Spencer's nature, seemingly critical of Bernanke, and unkind, to which he seems to retort with this monologue. His emotional outburst here gives us a rare sensical glimpse into Bernanke's mind, as he seems to be stifled and downtrodden by Spencer in life before the monologue takes place. "Humor and rhetorical devices," can be including patronisation and sarcasm, at which point Bernanke shouts these words in anguish. As he says this, the camera begins shaking slightly (as though to capture his instability in himself) and zooms in on his face, to end the outburst with only his main features on screen.
"...well, you can't, Spencer. You don't know what I'm... capable of."
As he speaks, the camera zooms quickly out, then on the last two words in the quotation, the music stops again. This is accompanied by the camera shot switching to show Spencer again, who looks more pompously concerned than uncomfortable, at this point. He looks forward and down, then quickly removes his glasses, dramatically. The camera switches back to Bernanke, whose wide smile quickly fades. He awkwardly states "I need your teeth for my Lonely Heart's Club Band, Spencer. Ben Bernanke." This reference to the Beatle's album is completely nonsensical; thus far, his spiel has revealed than this Lonely Heart's Club Band is going to reduce interest rates, using Spencer's teeth to do so. Bernanke's insanity is now assured. He then simply says his name, with a flourish, and a small smile.
The camera now shows a full shot of Spencer and Bernanke, Spencer with his leg crossed, facing Bernanke attentively. "I'm a magician, Spencer. A furious magician," is repeated again, quite plainly.
The camera angle is now a frontal view of Spencer, who, with a relaxed expression, asks "are you proud of your country, Spencer?"
He asks this twice, the second time, with more emphasis on the word "are." The first, the shot is of Bernanke, and the second time, Spencer, who places the previously removes glasses into his mouth in a cliché "thinking pose," then looks over at Bernanke, who is then shown to be smiling widely, his hand resting near his mouth. Bernanke seems to be harbouring a range of emotions for Spencer; anger, a form of affection, dependency and confidence (as he is outpouring his innermost emotions into this monologue.) Being a famed economist, and member of the board of governers for the Federal Reserve, Bernanke would be perfectly justified in saying this; However, the nonsequiential nature of the monologue would suggest otherwise.
"I bet you are, you pretty little boy." He goes on to suggest that Spencer is demanding more "applesauce," and that he has "enough applesauce" on his plate. The meaning for applesauce being "nonsense," it suggests that Spencer is constantly wanting more and more, disregarding what he already has. As he says this, the screen is warping, and the camera reel gets stuck. It escalates, and as he reaches the end of the second sentence, static engulfs the screen and a loud "beep" is heard. Immediately, the camera switches angles, to show Bernanke and Spencer, once again, Spencer showing a worried look on his face. This sequence may signify a break, the fragmented clip being a symbol of Bernanke's "broken" psyche.
Bernanke now exerts a physical, non-verbal gesture - for the first time in the film (excluding his hand being near his face in a pretentious manner for most of the film so far) as he bites the air, towards Spencer, suggestively. The next statement follows this gesture, oddly, perfectly. "I'm going to kiss you, Spencer. On the lips." The fact that he says this out loud, rather than in actions (as normal with human contact) it suggests that Bernanke doesn't know how to act, in sensitive situations. The second sentence is childishly immature, as though having to rectify that it is not a platonic gesture, that he nurtures some feelings for Bernanke, but is unsure of how to express them. He then goes on to comment on Spencer's aesthetic qualities, almost poetically. As he does, the camera cuts to show only Bernanke's mouth, as he says "naughty little baby boy," a device used to emphasise the "b" sounds made with his lips, and his smile at the end of the line. The camera then cuts to Spencer, biting his lip nervously, as Bernanke continues to compliment him suggestively.
He then almost interrupts himself, however, does so quite fluidly - "my mother tries to get me to go on dates, Spencer. You know what that's like? You know how humiliating that is, Spencer!?" He speaks with angst, however, with a completely blank look on his face. This, again, suggests how Bernanke may be sexually immature, and unsure of how to interact socially with any prospective partners (so, his mother must step in.) The fact that he finds that humiliating indicates that he is only immature in that sense - it is obvious that he is quite an intelligent, if nonsensical, man. He also requests that Spencer sympathise with him, that he might know what that is like, suggesting, again, that they are close (however he does hold some contempt for him, too.) As he ends this, he breathes heavily, as though out of breath, as this may have been heavily tiring for him.
The camera shot changes to Spencer as Bernanke continues.
"You boy, Spencer. Ah, Spencer!" He begins with the same, pretentiously belittling tone of voice, then, begins to sob, his hands in his face, in a child-like manner. He attempts to say Spencer's name as he cries, then, after only a few seconds, shouts "oh my God!" His sobs become laughs, very quickly, as he looks at Spencer with a wide smile.
He intakes air, in two large gasps, retaining a wide smile. This very nonsequiential segment seems to continue with the theme of Bernanke's degenerating psyche, as he is at the point at which laughing and crying have been merged. In comparison to the beginning of the video, he makes no sense at this part - at the beginning, he simply felt both love and hatred for Spencer, however, at this point, his feelings for Spencer are an enigma. He appears to be attempting to open up to this man that he feels such contempt for, yet, such attraction. The references to popular media have ceased, too.
Bernanke seems to have regained himself completely, now, looking at Spencer with a wide smile. "You tall drink of water, Spencer." This is a reiteration of his previous question, however, this seems to make the question's rhetoric redundant, as this states it as an opinion, not a question. This shows that Bernanke has made a decision regarding his feelings of attraction towards Spencer - he has complimented his appearance. He follows the statement with a mischievous titter, reinstating his immaturity and inexperience at matters of social engagement.
"I'm a magician, Spencer. A furious magician."
The repeat of this line, once again, ties in the nonsequiential lines and phrases within the entirety of the video, like the glue holding together the whole video. This acts as a sort of chorus, mantra, as though the writing for the video is a poem, or a song. The placement of it shows that the video is nearing its end; it is the fourth time being said, as the first time was the beginning, the two times in the middle were separated by only a few lines, and the final is the penultimate sentence within the video. This is used, again, to tie the video together and tie up the open-ended statements thus far.
"I love you, Spencer. I'm going to spank you silly."
I said "thus far," because this is the final line of the video. The camera is at a close-shot of Bernanke, just above eye level to the side of his face - this covers his eyes a little, possibly to dehumanise him to end the video, his expression being blank and showing no emotion. A cliffhanger is used, a device used to leave the viewer on edge, wanting to know more. This may invite the viewer to watch more of the director's videos, or just to leave an open-ended feeling to the video. The screen goes to black, and a dramatic final chord of the music is played. This is to end it cleanly, almost hastily, heightening the nature of the cliffhanger.
The statement suggests that Bernanke has finalised which of the range of feelings he feels for Spencer to act upon - friendship, contempt, anger and attraction included. It seems he is giving in to his positive feelings, as he first, professes love, a tender emotion. The second, a depraved offer, could be considered as an oxymoron - however, it doesn't exactly contradict the previous statement, it only cheapens it. This could mean that Bernanke has a skewed or warped vision of the concept of "love."
In conclusion, the main themes explored in this video were emotions, such as anger, love, jealousy, contempt and underlying sexual attraction, nonsequiential humor, the psyche of Bernanke, the relationship between the two, and american economics. These are all tied together quite erratically, however, the style in which the video is presented, quite spectacularly, justifies the chaos that is the dialogue. Overall, the video works well to achieve it's goal; to confuse the viewer, and leave them on edge. This is done through language devices, (such as repitition and alliteration), camera angles (for example, revealing Spencer's reactions), and non-diegetic sounds, as the piece in question builds up tension throughout the video.
YOU CAN TELL I REALLY WANTED TO GET IT OVER WITH IN THE SECOND HALF OR SO 'CAUSE IT GETS REALLY SHIT :S
Media anaylsation
Ben Bernanke by Ryan Murphy
The piece of media I will be reviewing and analysing is a short film by a freelance director. The film is a parody about the real Ben Bernanke and depicted as a monologue. Halfway through, it is revealed that the persona, famed American Economist Ben Bernanke, is speaking to another person, who does not respond for the entirety of the film, however, exerts body language which reveals their feelings, to a degree; the man, namely, Spencer, repeatedly looks away from Bernanke, clearly wishing to avoid eye contact with him.
The film opens with the image of the persona warping, accompanied by a buzzing sound, this lasting for less than a second. This hints at the unstable psyche of the persona, this idea then supported by the image being revealed as Ben Bernanke smiling inauspiciously at the camera, sitting in an armchair, the camera filming from below, perhaps to add to the atmosphere of instability. The opening line introduces the monologue quite successfully; simply, "hello there, Spencer." The word "Spencer" is spat out with subtle anger, which may indicate that the persona has hostile feelings for him. This is later contradicted by proclamations of love, and sexual advances in verbal form. As he begins speaking, the non-diegetic sound, Sergei Prokofiev's "Montagues And Capulets," fades in, which may set an uneasy mood for the video. Following this, Bernanke states "I see you, you boy. Boy. I see you, Spencer, with my eyes." This may be interpreted as a degenerating psyche, something a person would say if they were not of sound mind. This may also indicate that Bernanke is trying to gain the romantic attention of Spencer, using repetition on the words "you," and "boy." At this point, there is a close-up shot of Bernanke's face, as his eyes and smile widen. This shot lasts for about a second, and works to unsettle the viewer. He then goes on to describe Spencer as "the architect of my dreams," claiming that Spencer hands in proposals and that he himself dreams them, going on to thank Spencer, with heavy sarcasm, as the camera zooms into Bernanke's face. This is almost an on-screen oxymoron; how does Bernanke feel towards Spencer? Who is Spencer? What is it that causes these unnatural body language, speech, and mood patterns? These burning questions remain a mystery for the length of the video, and, eventually leave the viewer feeling confused and unsettled by the film as a whole.
This ongoing stream of non sequiturs is continued with "I'm a magician, Spencer, a furious magician." This comment, while it may be nonsensical to the point of hilarity, uses the literary device to further unsettle the viewer, not usual for the non sequitur. As he goes into the second part of this claim, the camera angle changes to show a slight side-view (however showing all of the front) of his face, which appears very calm and formal, matching his clothing. He then goes on to speak the Aramic words for "let the thing be gone," accompanying it with "- to you, Spencer," repeating this twice, worded slightly differently, revealing a widely bipolar trait in Bernanke's personality, or at least, in his feelings towards Spencer. As he says these words, his eyes widen, and he pronounces them with heavy emphasis and mouth movement, as though he is supressing an excitement, of unknown category.
The camera cuts back to a frontal angle, facing Bernanke, as he continues with the erratic dialogue; "you think you're something special, Spencer, you think you're something brand new," putting emphasis on "special," "Spencer," and "brand new." This shows a pattern; it seems that Bernanke is, in fact, envious of Spencer at this point. With the information provided thus far, it could be interpreted as Bernanke manifesting feelings for Spencer, while envying him for his status, it seems. In addition, as the words "brand new" are spoken, the camera cuts out and back on again, to film only the lower half of his face as he visually pronounces the words, almost with spite (the dialogue thus far has seen Bernanke pronounce words visually with heavy emphasis - for example, as he speaks, he will open his mouth quite wide, and amplify words in both ways). Changing camera angles again, this time, even further to the other side of Bernanke, he then says "you're old oats, Spencer; you're old, dry stale oats," again, using repetition to place primary emphasis on the statement.
At this point, the music notably ceases, and a second character is revealed - clearly, this is Spencer, the person Bernanke is talking to. Spencer, wearing glasses, is looking at the camera, which seems to now be filming from Bernanke's point of view. He then looks away, (as Bernanke repeats "...Spencer,") to the lower right of the screen, away from Bernanke; this shows that Bernanke is uncomfortable with maintaining eye-contact with him. In light of this, he looks back at him as Bernanke repeats "I'm a magician, Spencer, a furious magician." He then, cautiously, looks away again, turning his head away, slightly, too.
The camera cuts to a view of both personas, revealing that they are both sitting in armchairs, in a confortably furnished living-room. Their seats are quite close together, and they are both dressed in suits. This gives the impression of a formal meeting, visually; however, verbal evidence thus far suggests the opposite.
"You're a tall glass of water, aren't you, Spencer?" This rhetorical question is, naturally, left unanswered by Spencer, who simply sits looking at Bernanke, frozen, with a worried look on his face. As this sentence begins, the non-diegetic sound (the same song as before) fades slowly back in, as in its absence, an awkward silence took its place. As a few screeching high notes play, Bernanke states "...boy, precious boy." This, again, hints at Bernanke having romantic feelings for Spencer, however, the use of "precious" alone could be interpreted as platonic love.
At this point in the video, it is not needed, however, Bernanke goes on to introduce himself; "I'm Ben Bernanke, Spencer, and I want your teeth for the Federal Reserve!"
This sentence, worrying as it is, reveals exactly who he is and what his motives are - or, at least, partially. He emphasises the very last syllable with an upper-inflection, as he pauses slightly to take a breath, and continues;
"I'm cutting interest rates in half, Spencer, and I need your teeth."
He ends this sentence with a lower inflection, as the camera switches to a portrait-view of Spencer, as he worriedly looks at Bernanke, eyebrows raised. Attempting to claim ownership of Spencer's teeth is a worrying thought; the sheer thought of this man, with the American economy in his hands, is now quite worrying to the viewer. He looks down, away from the other man, as Bernanke begins talking again, in a low voice, "I'll admit, Spencer, you're handsome, but what have you done with it?"
This sentence is almost eerily stable-sounding in comparison with the rest of the monologue thus far - he pronounces the last six words particularly thoroughly, asking this question quite seriously, with a stern expression. The next line suggests a touch of paranoia in Bernanke's dialogue - "do you think you can mock me, Spencer? Do you?"
This use of rhetorical question in the monologue is a stylistic break - the constant stream of nonsequiential statements, while in timing, has not been broken, it has created a literary break. This continues with the next line, "do you think you can m-do you think you can capture my essence and throw it back at me, with humor and rhetorical devices!?"
The break in his speech, which was, it seems, a repetition of "do you think you can mock me?" is caused by static on the screen, possibly put in to finalise the "break" in the film, as it is almost halfway through at this point. Bernanke seems to be revealing Spencer's nature, seemingly critical of Bernanke, and unkind, to which he seems to retort with this monologue. His emotional outburst here gives us a rare sensical glimpse into Bernanke's mind, as he seems to be stifled and downtrodden by Spencer in life before the monologue takes place. "Humor and rhetorical devices," can be including patronisation and sarcasm, at which point Bernanke shouts these words in anguish. As he says this, the camera begins shaking slightly (as though to capture his instability in himself) and zooms in on his face, to end the outburst with only his main features on screen.
"...well, you can't, Spencer. You don't know what I'm... capable of."
As he speaks, the camera zooms quickly out, then on the last two words in the quotation, the music stops again. This is accompanied by the camera shot switching to show Spencer again, who looks more pompously concerned than uncomfortable, at this point. He looks forward and down, then quickly removes his glasses, dramatically. The camera switches back to Bernanke, whose wide smile quickly fades. He awkwardly states "I need your teeth for my Lonely Heart's Club Band, Spencer. Ben Bernanke." This reference to the Beatle's album is completely nonsensical; thus far, his spiel has revealed than this Lonely Heart's Club Band is going to reduce interest rates, using Spencer's teeth to do so. Bernanke's insanity is now assured. He then simply says his name, with a flourish, and a small smile.
The camera now shows a full shot of Spencer and Bernanke, Spencer with his leg crossed, facing Bernanke attentively. "I'm a magician, Spencer. A furious magician," is repeated again, quite plainly.
The camera angle is now a frontal view of Spencer, who, with a relaxed expression, asks "are you proud of your country, Spencer?"
He asks this twice, the second time, with more emphasis on the word "are." The first, the shot is of Bernanke, and the second time, Spencer, who places the previously removes glasses into his mouth in a cliché "thinking pose," then looks over at Bernanke, who is then shown to be smiling widely, his hand resting near his mouth. Bernanke seems to be harbouring a range of emotions for Spencer; anger, a form of affection, dependency and confidence (as he is outpouring his innermost emotions into this monologue.) Being a famed economist, and member of the board of governers for the Federal Reserve, Bernanke would be perfectly justified in saying this; However, the nonsequiential nature of the monologue would suggest otherwise.
"I bet you are, you pretty little boy." He goes on to suggest that Spencer is demanding more "applesauce," and that he has "enough applesauce" on his plate. The meaning for applesauce being "nonsense," it suggests that Spencer is constantly wanting more and more, disregarding what he already has. As he says this, the screen is warping, and the camera reel gets stuck. It escalates, and as he reaches the end of the second sentence, static engulfs the screen and a loud "beep" is heard. Immediately, the camera switches angles, to show Bernanke and Spencer, once again, Spencer showing a worried look on his face. This sequence may signify a break, the fragmented clip being a symbol of Bernanke's "broken" psyche.
Bernanke now exerts a physical, non-verbal gesture - for the first time in the film (excluding his hand being near his face in a pretentious manner for most of the film so far) as he bites the air, towards Spencer, suggestively. The next statement follows this gesture, oddly, perfectly. "I'm going to kiss you, Spencer. On the lips." The fact that he says this out loud, rather than in actions (as normal with human contact) it suggests that Bernanke doesn't know how to act, in sensitive situations. The second sentence is childishly immature, as though having to rectify that it is not a platonic gesture, that he nurtures some feelings for Bernanke, but is unsure of how to express them. He then goes on to comment on Spencer's aesthetic qualities, almost poetically. As he does, the camera cuts to show only Bernanke's mouth, as he says "naughty little baby boy," a device used to emphasise the "b" sounds made with his lips, and his smile at the end of the line. The camera then cuts to Spencer, biting his lip nervously, as Bernanke continues to compliment him suggestively.
He then almost interrupts himself, however, does so quite fluidly - "my mother tries to get me to go on dates, Spencer. You know what that's like? You know how humiliating that is, Spencer!?" He speaks with angst, however, with a completely blank look on his face. This, again, suggests how Bernanke may be sexually immature, and unsure of how to interact socially with any prospective partners (so, his mother must step in.) The fact that he finds that humiliating indicates that he is only immature in that sense - it is obvious that he is quite an intelligent, if nonsensical, man. He also requests that Spencer sympathise with him, that he might know what that is like, suggesting, again, that they are close (however he does hold some contempt for him, too.) As he ends this, he breathes heavily, as though out of breath, as this may have been heavily tiring for him.
The camera shot changes to Spencer as Bernanke continues.
"You boy, Spencer. Ah, Spencer!" He begins with the same, pretentiously belittling tone of voice, then, begins to sob, his hands in his face, in a child-like manner. He attempts to say Spencer's name as he cries, then, after only a few seconds, shouts "oh my God!" His sobs become laughs, very quickly, as he looks at Spencer with a wide smile.
He intakes air, in two large gasps, retaining a wide smile. This very nonsequiential segment seems to continue with the theme of Bernanke's degenerating psyche, as he is at the point at which laughing and crying have been merged. In comparison to the beginning of the video, he makes no sense at this part - at the beginning, he simply felt both love and hatred for Spencer, however, at this point, his feelings for Spencer are an enigma. He appears to be attempting to open up to this man that he feels such contempt for, yet, such attraction. The references to popular media have ceased, too.
Bernanke seems to have regained himself completely, now, looking at Spencer with a wide smile. "You tall drink of water, Spencer." This is a reiteration of his previous question, however, this seems to make the question's rhetoric redundant, as this states it as an opinion, not a question. This shows that Bernanke has made a decision regarding his feelings of attraction towards Spencer - he has complimented his appearance. He follows the statement with a mischievous titter, reinstating his immaturity and inexperience at matters of social engagement.
"I'm a magician, Spencer. A furious magician."
The repeat of this line, once again, ties in the nonsequiential lines and phrases within the entirety of the video, like the glue holding together the whole video. This acts as a sort of chorus, mantra, as though the writing for the video is a poem, or a song. The placement of it shows that the video is nearing its end; it is the fourth time being said, as the first time was the beginning, the two times in the middle were separated by only a few lines, and the final is the penultimate sentence within the video. This is used, again, to tie the video together and tie up the open-ended statements thus far.
"I love you, Spencer. I'm going to spank you silly."
I said "thus far," because this is the final line of the video. The camera is at a close-shot of Bernanke, just above eye level to the side of his face - this covers his eyes a little, possibly to dehumanise him to end the video, his expression being blank and showing no emotion. A cliffhanger is used, a device used to leave the viewer on edge, wanting to know more. This may invite the viewer to watch more of the director's videos, or just to leave an open-ended feeling to the video. The screen goes to black, and a dramatic final chord of the music is played. This is to end it cleanly, almost hastily, heightening the nature of the cliffhanger.
The statement suggests that Bernanke has finalised which of the range of feelings he feels for Spencer to act upon - friendship, contempt, anger and attraction included. It seems he is giving in to his positive feelings, as he first, professes love, a tender emotion. The second, a depraved offer, could be considered as an oxymoron - however, it doesn't exactly contradict the previous statement, it only cheapens it. This could mean that Bernanke has a skewed or warped vision of the concept of "love."
In conclusion, the main themes explored in this video were emotions, such as anger, love, jealousy, contempt and underlying sexual attraction, nonsequiential humor, the psyche of Bernanke, the relationship between the two, and american economics. These are all tied together quite erratically, however, the style in which the video is presented, quite spectacularly, justifies the chaos that is the dialogue. Overall, the video works well to achieve it's goal; to confuse the viewer, and leave them on edge. This is done through language devices, (such as repitition and alliteration), camera angles (for example, revealing Spencer's reactions), and non-diegetic sounds, as the piece in question builds up tension throughout the video.
YOU CAN TELL I REALLY WANTED TO GET IT OVER WITH IN THE SECOND HALF OR SO 'CAUSE IT GETS REALLY SHIT :S
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I tag everyone! I love hearing people talk :)
Accents are fun and stuff, and it's great to hear the accents from friends across the world. Record yourself answering the following questions:
1. What's your name?
2. How old are you?
3. Where are you from? Are you living there now?
4. Is it cold where you are?
5. What's the time?
6. What are you wearing?
7. What was the last thing you listened to?
8. What was the last thing you ate?
9. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
10. What's your favourite TV show? Why?
11. Quick! Find a book or someting with text on it! Flick to a random page and read from it.
12. What was the last movie you saw?
13. Do you think you have an accent? Talk about it.
- Mood:
tired
Hi Bran
and to reply to it: too much
I feel like such a scenemo kid for loving Panic! At The Disco xD but they sound awesome <3
Once again, my friends hate me :| one has, I'm fairly sure, noticed I like them, and someone else has gotten sick of me and can't stop being my friend because they've told me something big. So, here I am, with the only two people left, and they hate me. Brilliant.
I wanna meet awesome people who live in this town. People who won't piss off after a few months. People who won't start dating someone and ignore you.
Garghhghdgf *becomes a shut-in*
maybe I should try to be less annoying. I don't know how, other than not talking much, which tends to fail because I am one of those whores who forces their presence on everyone 'cause I haven't got anyone consistent right now.
*wants a hug*
O HAI LOOK I MIGHT POST SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T END IN /WRISTS SOMETIME SOON
Once again, my friends hate me :| one has, I'm fairly sure, noticed I like them, and someone else has gotten sick of me and can't stop being my friend because they've told me something big. So, here I am, with the only two people left, and they hate me. Brilliant.
I wanna meet awesome people who live in this town. People who won't piss off after a few months. People who won't start dating someone and ignore you.
Garghhghdgf *becomes a shut-in*
maybe I should try to be less annoying. I don't know how, other than not talking much, which tends to fail because I am one of those whores who forces their presence on everyone 'cause I haven't got anyone consistent right now.
*wants a hug*
O HAI LOOK I MIGHT POST SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T END IN /WRISTS SOMETIME SOON
- Mood:
blank
Hi, I haven't posted a proper post in ages, so. *Initiate long, self-indulgent trivial spew*
My art teacher has answered the question of WHY AM I BEING SO FUCKING MOPEY LATELY
The weather, it seems, can affect your mood. Huh.
Although I think it may be something to do with the fact that my friends are all ignoring me most of the time again. I love having someone to talk to, but they've all gone off with one other person, and leave me alone. And for some reason I started crying in Chemistry and couldn't stop, and uggghhhh. Nobody noticed, either, which I am fine with, I'd rather they didn't, but it's kind of... lonely.
ANYWAY
I am looking forward to the end of the week, anyway ^_____^
I had a maths exam AND the unit inspection at cadets all today, which was a lot less "AAAHHHHHHH" than I thought it'd be. And I got a haircut - it looks pretty cool now, but I looked like Bowie earlier :P
Eeee I wanna leave cadets but I'd miss it but it's shit
;___;
I wanna life
King Eddie's sent me a letter, telling me they'd recieved my application and were scheduling interviews. WELL THANKS FOR THAT. WHEN'S MY DAMN INTERVIEW
I hate our school, it's full of midgets and evil. And I love the official hangout we have, but it's gotten really mainstream. As one of the original people to decide to sit there back in 2005, I am outraged >:0 Ooooohhhh it's manga club tomorrow ^____^
I will stop rambing and maybe post something that makes sense soon.
Byee xx
My art teacher has answered the question of WHY AM I BEING SO FUCKING MOPEY LATELY
The weather, it seems, can affect your mood. Huh.
Although I think it may be something to do with the fact that my friends are all ignoring me most of the time again. I love having someone to talk to, but they've all gone off with one other person, and leave me alone. And for some reason I started crying in Chemistry and couldn't stop, and uggghhhh. Nobody noticed, either, which I am fine with, I'd rather they didn't, but it's kind of... lonely.
ANYWAY
I am looking forward to the end of the week, anyway ^_____^
I had a maths exam AND the unit inspection at cadets all today, which was a lot less "AAAHHHHHHH" than I thought it'd be. And I got a haircut - it looks pretty cool now, but I looked like Bowie earlier :P
Eeee I wanna leave cadets but I'd miss it but it's shit
;___;
I wanna life
King Eddie's sent me a letter, telling me they'd recieved my application and were scheduling interviews. WELL THANKS FOR THAT. WHEN'S MY DAMN INTERVIEW
I hate our school, it's full of midgets and evil. And I love the official hangout we have, but it's gotten really mainstream. As one of the original people to decide to sit there back in 2005, I am outraged >:0 Ooooohhhh it's manga club tomorrow ^____^
I will stop rambing and maybe post something that makes sense soon.
Byee xx
- Location:Here
- Mood:
cold - Music:Lamb
Hazy morning light permeated through the windows, which took up an entire wall, revealing grassy gardens and concrete paths leading through them. The flowers, soaked in rain that had fallen a few hours previously, glittered and shimmered in the soft bath of light. Next to a window was a table, an undrunk cup of coffee sitting on it. The beverage was being mixed uncertainly by a worried-looking man, who was sitting at the adjacent chair, facing the doors of the café he was in. He was slouched, leaning his head upon his hand, elbow on the table. His eyes were looking down at the rapidly cooling drink before him, his eyes occasionally flitting up to the doors, and then, falling back down. The man blended into the crème wall behind him, being pale and blond-haired. His hair stuck up in odd angles, as though he had been running his fingers through it. The hand not occupied by his drink was gripping the side of the chair anxiously. The man was of broad build, and simply wore a plain white button-up shirt, dirty jeans, and black pumps. His eyes revealed signs of tiredness, their lack of energy and dark circles below them giving this away. He sat like this, completely silent, surrounded by the clatter and rumble of the establishment, almost becoming a fixture, if not for the unpredictable pattern of movements his wrist was making as he mixed and mixed.
*needs to finish this*
*needs to finish this*
- Mood:artistic
Dear 380MB of music I just removed from my Walkman,
I'm sorry, okay? I love you, I really do, but I need to free up space for all the other music I have accumulated. I know you well, but I haven't given these new albums a chance. Just wait, I'm asking for something with a LOT more than 4Gig of memory for my birthday. Just another three months.
You will be sorely missed, I assure you. And I will listen to you on the CDs I burned, anyway.
Yours most faithfully,
Lorna
I'm sorry, okay? I love you, I really do, but I need to free up space for all the other music I have accumulated. I know you well, but I haven't given these new albums a chance. Just wait, I'm asking for something with a LOT more than 4Gig of memory for my birthday. Just another three months.
You will be sorely missed, I assure you. And I will listen to you on the CDs I burned, anyway.
Yours most faithfully,
Lorna
- Mood: lonely
Anyway, rather than take up space on everyone's news feed on Facebook, I've decided to do a quiz thing here, instead >_>
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45 Things
If you opened this, copy it and paste it into your own note - FILL IT OUT!!! Learn 45 things about your friends, and let them learn 45 things about you!
1. Do you like blue cheese? Never tried it, but it sounds gross.
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? No.
3. Do you own a gun? No, my dad has an air pistol, though.
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Starbucks? I don't go to Starbucks.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Depends what the appointment is for.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? They're tasty.
7. Favorite Christmas movie? The Snowman.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Tea.
9. Can you do push ups? I can do girl push-ups.
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? Banana necklace, L necklace, or green pearls.
11. Favorite hobby? Drawing whilst listening to music.
12. Do you have A.D.D? Not as far as I know.
13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? There's a lot more than one. Uhh, I am annoying. And I copy people without realising I am.
14. Middle name? Ann.
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: What shall I put here, will I have to do guard tonight, I should charge my Walkman.
16. Name 3 things you bought yesterday? I didn't buy anything.
17. Name 3 things you drink daily. Tea, Chocolate milk (when I can) and some sort of fruit juice.
18. Current worry? Coursework.
19. Current Dislike? Lack of life.
20. How did you bring in the New Year? Shittily. Wanted to go to a party with my friends, instead, had to go and see relatives :/
21. Where would you like to go? Anywhere fun. Or a place where they gave you whatever books you want for free.
22. Name three people who will complete this? Me, no one else.
23. Do you own slippers? Yeah, they're like cushions in the shape of boots with a zip. Fucking warm :)
24. What shirt are you wearing? School top, hoody.
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I don't mind.
26. Favorite color? Turquoise, yellow.
27. Could you be a pirate? No, my morals wouldn't allow it. I'd dress up as one, though :)
28. What songs do you sing in the shower? Whatever song is playing.
29. Favorite food? There's a lot. It changes depending on my mood. Right now, it's chocolate.
30. What's in your pocket right now? 68p
31. Last thing that made you laugh? I drew pubes between my forefinger and middle finger and made it dance, then drew the top half of a lady on it, then shoes, and made her dance to the Badger song, sung by my friend.
32. Favorite sheets? Uhm, like on my bed? The red, orange, yellow and white stripy one.
33. Worst injury you have ever had? Uhm, I fell off a swing while it was going and got knocked out, bruised my arm badly and got kicked a couple of times by the other kids in the park while I was out.
34. Do you love where you live? Most certainly not. :(
35. How many TVs do you have in your house? Three.
36. Who is your loudest friend? Either Kati or Zach.
37. How many dogs do you have? Just my sist-*shot*
38. Does someone have a crush on you? I think so, not anyone I see as more of a friend, in any case :/
39. What is your favorite book(s) or author(s)? The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry.
40. What is your favorite candy? Chocolate, liquorice laces, rhubarb & custard, bon-bons.
41. Favorite Sports Team? Uhm, I don't do sports.
42. What songs do you want sung at your funeral? I don't want a funeral, everyone has a shit time then. I wouldn't want a song played, anyway.
43. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Talking to Ben.
44. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke this morning? "Ohh fuck snow is cold."
45. Favorite place to be? The bus/train out of Rugeley, preferably to somewhere like Birmingham or somewhere interesting.
1. Do you like blue cheese? Never tried it, but it sounds gross.
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? No.
3. Do you own a gun? No, my dad has an air pistol, though.
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Starbucks? I don't go to Starbucks.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Depends what the appointment is for.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? They're tasty.
7. Favorite Christmas movie? The Snowman.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Tea.
9. Can you do push ups? I can do girl push-ups.
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? Banana necklace, L necklace, or green pearls.
11. Favorite hobby? Drawing whilst listening to music.
12. Do you have A.D.D? Not as far as I know.
13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? There's a lot more than one. Uhh, I am annoying. And I copy people without realising I am.
14. Middle name? Ann.
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: What shall I put here, will I have to do guard tonight, I should charge my Walkman.
16. Name 3 things you bought yesterday? I didn't buy anything.
17. Name 3 things you drink daily. Tea, Chocolate milk (when I can) and some sort of fruit juice.
18. Current worry? Coursework.
19. Current Dislike? Lack of life.
20. How did you bring in the New Year? Shittily. Wanted to go to a party with my friends, instead, had to go and see relatives :/
21. Where would you like to go? Anywhere fun. Or a place where they gave you whatever books you want for free.
22. Name three people who will complete this? Me, no one else.
23. Do you own slippers? Yeah, they're like cushions in the shape of boots with a zip. Fucking warm :)
24. What shirt are you wearing? School top, hoody.
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I don't mind.
26. Favorite color? Turquoise, yellow.
27. Could you be a pirate? No, my morals wouldn't allow it. I'd dress up as one, though :)
28. What songs do you sing in the shower? Whatever song is playing.
29. Favorite food? There's a lot. It changes depending on my mood. Right now, it's chocolate.
30. What's in your pocket right now? 68p
31. Last thing that made you laugh? I drew pubes between my forefinger and middle finger and made it dance, then drew the top half of a lady on it, then shoes, and made her dance to the Badger song, sung by my friend.
32. Favorite sheets? Uhm, like on my bed? The red, orange, yellow and white stripy one.
33. Worst injury you have ever had? Uhm, I fell off a swing while it was going and got knocked out, bruised my arm badly and got kicked a couple of times by the other kids in the park while I was out.
34. Do you love where you live? Most certainly not. :(
35. How many TVs do you have in your house? Three.
36. Who is your loudest friend? Either Kati or Zach.
37. How many dogs do you have? Just my sist-*shot*
38. Does someone have a crush on you? I think so, not anyone I see as more of a friend, in any case :/
39. What is your favorite book(s) or author(s)? The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry.
40. What is your favorite candy? Chocolate, liquorice laces, rhubarb & custard, bon-bons.
41. Favorite Sports Team? Uhm, I don't do sports.
42. What songs do you want sung at your funeral? I don't want a funeral, everyone has a shit time then. I wouldn't want a song played, anyway.
43. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Talking to Ben.
44. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke this morning? "Ohh fuck snow is cold."
45. Favorite place to be? The bus/train out of Rugeley, preferably to somewhere like Birmingham or somewhere interesting.
- Mood: tired
Don't bother trying to decifer this, even I'm slightly confused.. It's just venting, but I want to keep it for future reference.
Okay okay I'm all confused and aagrghhrg
Basically, I think I've only ever actually been attracted to about two of the males I've dated. That was, what, a year ago, the last time I actually liked someone, and I've been out with someone else since then. Even then, I've only ever experienced the sort of school-child "will you be my girlfriend?" sort of relationship, when the feelings aren't neccesarily mutual. I think, maybe, I need more experience, but I've turned down about four guys in the last few months. I'm not showing off, far from it, I'm worried. What if I've changed? Being fifteen, my hormones are erratic and I currently go by being bisexual. But I'm not so sure about guys right now. Maybe I'm just choosy, or I'm too inexperienced to be willing to pursue a relationship. Maybe my hormones are wreaking havoc with me. I don't know, but whatever it is, I can't seem to feel mutually attracted to anyone. And, seeing as I want to experiment more to get to know myself, I'm pretty sure he's interested in me. I think I can trust him. He knows I'm "unspecified," as I'm only out the closet to people I don't know IRL. But I'm terrified of people's reactions. I've come out to one person as of yet, and I am compiling a vague mental list of who to tell next. I'm worried about telling my closest female friend, as she has told me before that she also wants to experiment with girls, and I don't want to sound like I'm coming on to her or anything. And there's my other friend, he's really trustworthy and when he's not ignoring me and being a dick he is lovely. I would tell him if he could be arsed to talk to me once in a while. And there's the person I've already told; it was horrifying when I was actually telling him, and when he reacted positively, for want of a non-cliché, I felt lighter. So, I want to tell people to feel better. But if they react negatively, I'd probably subconciously try to be straight again and then find myself trying not to have "offensive" thoughts. I hate that I worry about whether I've offended anyone; I can't please everyone, but I can't accept that. Argh. Well, anyway, someone is interested in me but I'm scared of reciprocating. I am attracted to him physically, but not so much otherwise. I've made this mistake way too many times. I end up feeling really awkward and nervous when they constantly text me (why why do boys text so fucking much) and it distracts me from being a person, so I just sit there texting them back trying to make them shut up and trying to take notes on the poem we're revising or something and then I can't remember anything from the last week or however long the childish relationship lasted until I shakily ended it by saying I'm a lesbian or something, just to quickly and harshly end the idiocy. Wow, just writing this is making me realise shit and feel better. I'm not sure whether to post this, it's literally me just thinking and typing what I think and it ends in HUUUGGGEEE posts when I do that, then I delete them because I feel stupid, but then the stuff still worries me because I think someone's actually going to bother to read all this shit and think I'm a moron or something because ALWAYS TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE and make everyone happy and like me because I seem to be terrified of being alone, even though it seems when I recieve attention it's always unwanted, even though I crave it. Ugh. Anyway, as I was saying, I should stop saying I'll date some idiot I don't really like just because I don't really know what that feels like to like someone who actually likes me back, and then regretting it much much more later. It's happened way too many times and it's making me lose faith in having any sort of normal relationship anytime soon. And I'm being really whiny bitchy now because I know people who've had no experience whatsoever and they seem to be coping, but I'm not sure because my view of relationships and stuff is skewed rather than nonexistant and is that a bad thing? And I've watched my best friend develop this sort of thing that I want so much, but we don't really talk any more because she's always with him. I'm scared of that, too. And while I don't really know what the fuck I'm typing, what the hell.
Yeah, thanks to typing this insanely huge post I've actually progressed to make a decision. Thank you, EmoJournal ^___^
On that note, I mean to do a ten things meme sometime soon, they're great for venting.
tl;dr HARBLGLARGBLEDUUURR
Okay okay I'm all confused and aagrghhrg
Basically, I think I've only ever actually been attracted to about two of the males I've dated. That was, what, a year ago, the last time I actually liked someone, and I've been out with someone else since then. Even then, I've only ever experienced the sort of school-child "will you be my girlfriend?" sort of relationship, when the feelings aren't neccesarily mutual. I think, maybe, I need more experience, but I've turned down about four guys in the last few months. I'm not showing off, far from it, I'm worried. What if I've changed? Being fifteen, my hormones are erratic and I currently go by being bisexual. But I'm not so sure about guys right now. Maybe I'm just choosy, or I'm too inexperienced to be willing to pursue a relationship. Maybe my hormones are wreaking havoc with me. I don't know, but whatever it is, I can't seem to feel mutually attracted to anyone. And, seeing as I want to experiment more to get to know myself, I'm pretty sure he's interested in me. I think I can trust him. He knows I'm "unspecified," as I'm only out the closet to people I don't know IRL. But I'm terrified of people's reactions. I've come out to one person as of yet, and I am compiling a vague mental list of who to tell next. I'm worried about telling my closest female friend, as she has told me before that she also wants to experiment with girls, and I don't want to sound like I'm coming on to her or anything. And there's my other friend, he's really trustworthy and when he's not ignoring me and being a dick he is lovely. I would tell him if he could be arsed to talk to me once in a while. And there's the person I've already told; it was horrifying when I was actually telling him, and when he reacted positively, for want of a non-cliché, I felt lighter. So, I want to tell people to feel better. But if they react negatively, I'd probably subconciously try to be straight again and then find myself trying not to have "offensive" thoughts. I hate that I worry about whether I've offended anyone; I can't please everyone, but I can't accept that. Argh. Well, anyway, someone is interested in me but I'm scared of reciprocating. I am attracted to him physically, but not so much otherwise. I've made this mistake way too many times. I end up feeling really awkward and nervous when they constantly text me (why why do boys text so fucking much) and it distracts me from being a person, so I just sit there texting them back trying to make them shut up and trying to take notes on the poem we're revising or something and then I can't remember anything from the last week or however long the childish relationship lasted until I shakily ended it by saying I'm a lesbian or something, just to quickly and harshly end the idiocy. Wow, just writing this is making me realise shit and feel better. I'm not sure whether to post this, it's literally me just thinking and typing what I think and it ends in HUUUGGGEEE posts when I do that, then I delete them because I feel stupid, but then the stuff still worries me because I think someone's actually going to bother to read all this shit and think I'm a moron or something because ALWAYS TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE and make everyone happy and like me because I seem to be terrified of being alone, even though it seems when I recieve attention it's always unwanted, even though I crave it. Ugh. Anyway, as I was saying, I should stop saying I'll date some idiot I don't really like just because I don't really know what that feels like to like someone who actually likes me back, and then regretting it much much more later. It's happened way too many times and it's making me lose faith in having any sort of normal relationship anytime soon. And I'm being really whiny bitchy now because I know people who've had no experience whatsoever and they seem to be coping, but I'm not sure because my view of relationships and stuff is skewed rather than nonexistant and is that a bad thing? And I've watched my best friend develop this sort of thing that I want so much, but we don't really talk any more because she's always with him. I'm scared of that, too. And while I don't really know what the fuck I'm typing, what the hell.
Yeah, thanks to typing this insanely huge post I've actually progressed to make a decision. Thank you, EmoJournal ^___^
On that note, I mean to do a ten things meme sometime soon, they're great for venting.
tl;dr HARBLGLARGBLEDUUURR
- Mood:accomplished
EVEN THOUGH I ONLY GOT ONE REPLY
Oh well.
My laptop moves around a lot, but it is currently here:
THANK YOU JUSTIN<33
The Johnny Depp mug is my mother's. It was the largest clean one available ¬__¬
Also messy room yay.
Oh well.
My laptop moves around a lot, but it is currently here:
THANK YOU JUSTIN<33
The Johnny Depp mug is my mother's. It was the largest clean one available ¬__¬
Also messy room yay.
- Mood: hungry
1. Ask me to take pictures of any aspect of my life you're curious about.
2. Leave your requests as comments to this entry.
3. Please look at the previous requests as to not do repeats.
4. I'll snap the pictures and post them.
I'm most likely going to get very few if any replies >_< so, yeah. I stole it from Emmy but lots of other people did, too...
(sounds fun ^^)
(sounds fun ^^)
- Mood: cold
In reference to today's Writer's Block - National Bird Day.
HAY SWEET TITS
MY COCK
that is all.
HAY SWEET TITS
MY COCK
that is all.
Raah my parents are racist and overly-judgmental. That is all on the negative front.
I found my pencil-case, yay! Drawing ensued. I have no access to a scanner, but hay.
Angel-boy is unfinished. I need to get some watacula on that.
She was asleep so I Sharpie'd her. The other side of her arm says "I LOVE MY BIG SISTER" with a heart and swirls.
- Mood:artistic
... But there is building work going on in the kitchen.
The film of Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging is really shit. They got the perfect-ish people for the roles, it was well shot, and the settings were loyal to the book... But they changed the ENTIRE storyline into a UK version of Mean Girls -_- and... Ugh. Factors worked, others didn't, and it ruined it.
1. Where is your cell phone? Downstairs.
2. Your significant other? Out there, I hope.
3. Your hair? Brown, short.
4. Your Skin? Greasy and pale.
5. Your mother? We... Don't get on tremendously well.
6. Your favorite thing? Art. Exerting creativity.
7. Your dream last night? I can't remember.
8. Your favorite drink? Orange juice.
9. Your dream/goal? To be happy with a good job?
10. The room you're in? My parent's room.
11. Your ex? Most recent one is ugh -_-
12. Your fear? Lots of things.
13. What do you want to be in 6 years? A University student.
14. Where were you last night? At home.
15. What you're not? ... Male? Socially gifted? I'uno xD
16. Muffins? Yum ^_^
17. One of your wish list items? A BJD.
18. Where you grew up? Walsall.
19. The last thing you did? Typed the answer to the last question.
20. What are you wearing? School uniform.
21. Your TV? Is downstairs.
22. Your pets? Two cats, two snails.
23. Your computer? I am on it now.
24. Your life? Will begin when I leave school, I hope.
25. Your mood? Content, slightly anxious.
26. Missing someone? Probably..
27. Your car? I don't have one.
28. Something you're not wearing? Women's underwear.
29. Favourite Store? The Charity shop I always visit. And Waterstones.
30. Your summer? Kind of boring.
31. Like someone? Yeah..
32. Your favorite color? I have a few.
33. When is the last time you laughed? Today, I think.
34. Last time you cried? ... Last Wednesday.
35. Who will/would re-post this? No one :P no-one reads this Journal, which I like.
36. Whose Answers are you anxious to see? Someone, but they don't even have an LJ, heh.
2. Your significant other? Out there, I hope.
3. Your hair? Brown, short.
4. Your Skin? Greasy and pale.
5. Your mother? We... Don't get on tremendously well.
6. Your favorite thing? Art. Exerting creativity.
7. Your dream last night? I can't remember.
8. Your favorite drink? Orange juice.
9. Your dream/goal? To be happy with a good job?
10. The room you're in? My parent's room.
11. Your ex? Most recent one is ugh -_-
12. Your fear? Lots of things.
13. What do you want to be in 6 years? A University student.
14. Where were you last night? At home.
15. What you're not? ... Male? Socially gifted? I'uno xD
16. Muffins? Yum ^_^
17. One of your wish list items? A BJD.
18. Where you grew up? Walsall.
19. The last thing you did? Typed the answer to the last question.
20. What are you wearing? School uniform.
21. Your TV? Is downstairs.
22. Your pets? Two cats, two snails.
23. Your computer? I am on it now.
24. Your life? Will begin when I leave school, I hope.
25. Your mood? Content, slightly anxious.
26. Missing someone? Probably..
27. Your car? I don't have one.
28. Something you're not wearing? Women's underwear.
29. Favourite Store? The Charity shop I always visit. And Waterstones.
30. Your summer? Kind of boring.
31. Like someone? Yeah..
32. Your favorite color? I have a few.
33. When is the last time you laughed? Today, I think.
34. Last time you cried? ... Last Wednesday.
35. Who will/would re-post this? No one :P no-one reads this Journal, which I like.
36. Whose Answers are you anxious to see? Someone, but they don't even have an LJ, heh.
- Mood:awake
Hay I had the awesomest dream ever last night.
There are parts I don't remember too well, but I got the gist.
I was in the sea, with a person, not too sure who. I get the feeling they were male and had pink hair, but quite a commanding, masculine air. I didn't feel the water I was in, so it was like, just floating. I decided to swim to France, and he asked me to close my eyes and swim, and he'd direct me. So I was in France in a matter of minutes.
We got there, and he swam off. I didn't really notice.
I got on the shore, and I was completely dry. I met my friend, and we went to a RUSSIAN hotel, and the room had two single beds, was free, and had a computer with internet. He sat at the computer and I sat on the floor, and looked at the bed. Suddenly, but not surprisingly, Can You Feel The Love Tonight, Hakuna Matata and I Just Can't Wait To Be King played, and the characters from The Lion King were all dancing and singing them on a little platform (and I was still sitting at the hotel..) This platform was under the bed, but extended to the top of it. Then I woke up. My subconcious is a fucking moron.
Meme time.
1)Are you really ready for 100 questions?
As ready as I'm ever gonna be..
2) Was your last relationship a mistake?
Somewhat, but I learned from it, too.
3) Do you believe in God?
I wish I did. No, I wish I could.
4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
Anna ^_^
5) Do you regret it?
Nope.
6) Have you ever been depressed?
Not the serious kind. Just the mood.
7) Do you have a best friend?
Hmm... I'm not sure.
8) Are you a boy or girl?
Girl..
9) What is your relationship status?
Single.
10) How do you want to die?
I don't really want to, quite yet. I'd like to be about 80-85, and something painless. I don't want to die in a hospital ward.
11) What did you last eat?
Fruit sweets.
13) Do you have an attitude?
Only when riled.
14) Ever been in love?
I don't think so.
15) What is your real name?
Lorna.
16) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
I don't think I hate anyone, just dislike.
17) Do you miss someone?
Hmm.
18) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Who cuts it? O_o
19) Do you tan a lot?
I burn, then tan. I burn through clothes, wearing suncream. Raah.
20) Have any pets?
Two cats, Phoebe and Giblet, and two snails, Randall and Darwin.
21) How exactly are you feeling?
Cold, and hungry. It hurts to type.
22) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
I don't drive, and yes.
23) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Nope.
24) Would you take any of your exes back?
One, if he lived closer.
25) Are you scared of spiders?
Not really. I don't like touching them, but I would if specifically asked. They're dirty D:
26) Would you go back in time if you could.
Yeah, I guess. (I'd stop myself eating my own body weight in pasta when I was twelve.)
27) Do you regret anything in your past?
Not severely, but a little.
28) What are your plans for this weekend?
Bag-packing with Cadets, and possibly Christmas shopping. And internets. And revising. And art.
29) Do you want to have kids?
I'd like to adopt, maybe.
30) Ever kissed somebody that name starts with an M?
Sorta. "Em."
31) Do you type fast?
When I have warm fingers, yes.
32) Do you have piercings?
One in each ear. Not allowed any more until I'm eighteen. Stupid heart condition D:
33) Want any more?
God yes. Lip, scaffolding in ears.
34) Can you spell well?
I'm adequate :P
35) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Kinda, yeah. She didn't reply to any of my letters.
36) What are you craving right now?
Chicken, and warmliness D:
37) Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yeah, most years. Not this year. Whuh.
38) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes, I fucking hated it.
39) Kissed someone in a truck?
...No.
40) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I think, maybe :(
41) Have you ever been cheated on?
Yeah..
42) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I hope not O_O
43) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yeah, I guess. Depends.
44) What should you be doing?
Homework homework womehork.
45) What's irritating you right now?
I need to buy stamps but have no money D: and homework. And cold.
46) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yeah -_-
47) Does somebody love you besides family?
I hope so.
48) What is your favorite colour?
Anywhere between green and blue, and I like yellow, too. And crimson.
49) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yeah :P
50) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
No..
51) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I guess. Me and my mom can be a bit hostile.
52) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
Only as a friend, now.
53) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Hm.. Not in front of anyone, I was in the toilet :P but about three people came in.
54) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Nah, I'm really unforgiving.
55) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
If you can swallow your pride and forgive.. That's easier.
56) Is this year the best year of your life?
Fuck no.
57) What was your child hood nickname?
Lorna-loo-loo. It still is -_-
58) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
No, but I took my top off in the park once.
59) Do you think you' re a good person?
I try to be.
60) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
No, just that bad stuff tends to come back to you. Best to try and be a nice person.
61) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Made a cup of tea, read my book.
62) Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Who?
Yes, an ex-boyfriend.
63) What is bothering you?
Bother bother bother. I'uno.
64) Have you ever been out of state province?
I'm not American. I've been out of the UK before.
65) Are you listening to music right now?
Hongkongaton - Gorillaz
66) Do you like Chinese food?
I like rice and chicken-balls, and Chow Mein noodles.
67) Do you know your fathers b-day?
Yes.
68) Are you afraid of the dark?
Somewhat. More of the night in general.
69) Is cheating ever okay?
No. Even a flirty game of dares -_-
70) Are you mean?
I hope not. When I'm angry I can be.
71) Can you keep white shoes clean?
I can't keep black shoes clean. No :P
72) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal?
For one question? No.
73) Do you believe in true love?
As a state of mind, and not an entity, yes.
74) Do you like the outside?
If it's the right time of day/night, and warm, yes.
75) Are you currently bored?
Nope. Only boring people get bored.
76) Do you wanna get married?
If it's the right person, maybe.
77) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
It freaks me out.
78) Are you hungry?
Yes. I can smell that damn chicken.
79) Do you have a bank account?
Yes, it currently has nothing in it.
80) What makes you happy?
Friends, games, books, music, drawing, art, writing, drinking in decent amounts.
81) Would you change your name?
No.
82) Ever been to Alaska?
No.
83) Do you watch the news?
If it's on. I don't watch TV much.
84) What' s your zodiac sign?
Taurus.
85) Do you like Subway?
Never eaten there.
86) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes, it was someone I dislike, for a dare.
87) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
If I like him back, awesomes, give it a try.
88) Do you like your friends?
...Yes?
89) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
So many times.
90) Who is the last guy you talked to?
My dad.
91) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Erm, I'd like to think it wouldn't, but the idea of smoking itself repulses me. If he didn't around me, and didn't kiss me after smoking and befor- in fact, it really wouldn't work. Smoking is eww.
92) What's going on between you and your best friend?
The concept of "best friend" is lost to me. I have a circle of close friends.
93) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
... In real life, probably Kati. Online, most likely Ben. This all depends on how you define "deep."
94) Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
No.
95) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
They hurt but want moar.
96) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, or shorts?
Jeans.
97) You're a Sharpie marker, what color are you?
Ooh, turquoise, or blue ^_^
98) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
We don't have a shower yet, but night, preferably :P
99) Have you ever said you'd never love again?
No.
100) Do you want to please everyone?
Yeah..
There are parts I don't remember too well, but I got the gist.
I was in the sea, with a person, not too sure who. I get the feeling they were male and had pink hair, but quite a commanding, masculine air. I didn't feel the water I was in, so it was like, just floating. I decided to swim to France, and he asked me to close my eyes and swim, and he'd direct me. So I was in France in a matter of minutes.
We got there, and he swam off. I didn't really notice.
I got on the shore, and I was completely dry. I met my friend, and we went to a RUSSIAN hotel, and the room had two single beds, was free, and had a computer with internet. He sat at the computer and I sat on the floor, and looked at the bed. Suddenly, but not surprisingly, Can You Feel The Love Tonight, Hakuna Matata and I Just Can't Wait To Be King played, and the characters from The Lion King were all dancing and singing them on a little platform (and I was still sitting at the hotel..) This platform was under the bed, but extended to the top of it. Then I woke up. My subconcious is a fucking moron.
Meme time.
1)Are you really ready for 100 questions?
As ready as I'm ever gonna be..
2) Was your last relationship a mistake?
Somewhat, but I learned from it, too.
3) Do you believe in God?
I wish I did. No, I wish I could.
4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
Anna ^_^
5) Do you regret it?
Nope.
6) Have you ever been depressed?
Not the serious kind. Just the mood.
7) Do you have a best friend?
Hmm... I'm not sure.
8) Are you a boy or girl?
Girl..
9) What is your relationship status?
Single.
10) How do you want to die?
I don't really want to, quite yet. I'd like to be about 80-85, and something painless. I don't want to die in a hospital ward.
11) What did you last eat?
Fruit sweets.
13) Do you have an attitude?
Only when riled.
14) Ever been in love?
I don't think so.
15) What is your real name?
Lorna.
16) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
I don't think I hate anyone, just dislike.
17) Do you miss someone?
Hmm.
18) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Who cuts it? O_o
19) Do you tan a lot?
I burn, then tan. I burn through clothes, wearing suncream. Raah.
20) Have any pets?
Two cats, Phoebe and Giblet, and two snails, Randall and Darwin.
21) How exactly are you feeling?
Cold, and hungry. It hurts to type.
22) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
I don't drive, and yes.
23) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Nope.
24) Would you take any of your exes back?
One, if he lived closer.
25) Are you scared of spiders?
Not really. I don't like touching them, but I would if specifically asked. They're dirty D:
26) Would you go back in time if you could.
Yeah, I guess. (I'd stop myself eating my own body weight in pasta when I was twelve.)
27) Do you regret anything in your past?
Not severely, but a little.
28) What are your plans for this weekend?
Bag-packing with Cadets, and possibly Christmas shopping. And internets. And revising. And art.
29) Do you want to have kids?
I'd like to adopt, maybe.
30) Ever kissed somebody that name starts with an M?
Sorta. "Em."
31) Do you type fast?
When I have warm fingers, yes.
32) Do you have piercings?
One in each ear. Not allowed any more until I'm eighteen. Stupid heart condition D:
33) Want any more?
God yes. Lip, scaffolding in ears.
34) Can you spell well?
I'm adequate :P
35) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Kinda, yeah. She didn't reply to any of my letters.
36) What are you craving right now?
Chicken, and warmliness D:
37) Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yeah, most years. Not this year. Whuh.
38) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes, I fucking hated it.
39) Kissed someone in a truck?
...No.
40) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I think, maybe :(
41) Have you ever been cheated on?
Yeah..
42) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I hope not O_O
43) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yeah, I guess. Depends.
44) What should you be doing?
Homework homework womehork.
45) What's irritating you right now?
I need to buy stamps but have no money D: and homework. And cold.
46) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yeah -_-
47) Does somebody love you besides family?
I hope so.
48) What is your favorite colour?
Anywhere between green and blue, and I like yellow, too. And crimson.
49) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yeah :P
50) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
No..
51) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I guess. Me and my mom can be a bit hostile.
52) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
Only as a friend, now.
53) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Hm.. Not in front of anyone, I was in the toilet :P but about three people came in.
54) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Nah, I'm really unforgiving.
55) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
If you can swallow your pride and forgive.. That's easier.
56) Is this year the best year of your life?
Fuck no.
57) What was your child hood nickname?
Lorna-loo-loo. It still is -_-
58) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
No, but I took my top off in the park once.
59) Do you think you' re a good person?
I try to be.
60) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
No, just that bad stuff tends to come back to you. Best to try and be a nice person.
61) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Made a cup of tea, read my book.
62) Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Who?
Yes, an ex-boyfriend.
63) What is bothering you?
Bother bother bother. I'uno.
64) Have you ever been out of state province?
I'm not American. I've been out of the UK before.
65) Are you listening to music right now?
Hongkongaton - Gorillaz
66) Do you like Chinese food?
I like rice and chicken-balls, and Chow Mein noodles.
67) Do you know your fathers b-day?
Yes.
68) Are you afraid of the dark?
Somewhat. More of the night in general.
69) Is cheating ever okay?
No. Even a flirty game of dares -_-
70) Are you mean?
I hope not. When I'm angry I can be.
71) Can you keep white shoes clean?
I can't keep black shoes clean. No :P
72) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal?
For one question? No.
73) Do you believe in true love?
As a state of mind, and not an entity, yes.
74) Do you like the outside?
If it's the right time of day/night, and warm, yes.
75) Are you currently bored?
Nope. Only boring people get bored.
76) Do you wanna get married?
If it's the right person, maybe.
77) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
It freaks me out.
78) Are you hungry?
Yes. I can smell that damn chicken.
79) Do you have a bank account?
Yes, it currently has nothing in it.
80) What makes you happy?
Friends, games, books, music, drawing, art, writing, drinking in decent amounts.
81) Would you change your name?
No.
82) Ever been to Alaska?
No.
83) Do you watch the news?
If it's on. I don't watch TV much.
84) What' s your zodiac sign?
Taurus.
85) Do you like Subway?
Never eaten there.
86) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes, it was someone I dislike, for a dare.
87) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
If I like him back, awesomes, give it a try.
88) Do you like your friends?
...Yes?
89) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
So many times.
90) Who is the last guy you talked to?
My dad.
91) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Erm, I'd like to think it wouldn't, but the idea of smoking itself repulses me. If he didn't around me, and didn't kiss me after smoking and befor- in fact, it really wouldn't work. Smoking is eww.
92) What's going on between you and your best friend?
The concept of "best friend" is lost to me. I have a circle of close friends.
93) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
... In real life, probably Kati. Online, most likely Ben. This all depends on how you define "deep."
94) Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
No.
95) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
They hurt but want moar.
96) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, or shorts?
Jeans.
97) You're a Sharpie marker, what color are you?
Ooh, turquoise, or blue ^_^
98) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
We don't have a shower yet, but night, preferably :P
99) Have you ever said you'd never love again?
No.
100) Do you want to please everyone?
Yeah..
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